My long day

Hi my name is, well lets just call me the young girl at heart, I have come to the conclusion that at a very young age things have always seemed to be very complicated for me. So I have decided that I am going to start writing down everything that happens in my life. In the hopes that someday all my dreams will come true and I can look back on this as well I don't know a journey of of all of my deepest  thoughts and fortune that comes my way. I was not always this lost, I used to know what I wanted to do with my life. I had dreams just like any one of you. I used to tell others growing up  that I was going to be a child advocate and fight for children who had been abused. Speak for the children that could not speak for themselves be there voice and bring justice. This never happened. I am 29 years old jobless and only now am starting to realize I have waisted about 20 years of my life accomplishing nothing. I know pathetic right !! I am starting school in the fall and have not been back in over 10 years, I know what you are thinking it's never to late to go back. I understand that its not to late, but most of my friends have careers and are extremely happy. I long for those days of happiness. I have only one happiness in my life and that is my husband he is amazing I have no idea how on earth I found a person like him he is supportive and loving and Caring a real prince charming well sort of . I am supposed to be living the American dream right ? Not us we struggle , We pay the rent late almost every month, we live pay check to pay check and sometimes I feel I am more his roommate than wife. I will cover this in more detail very soon. Lets just call him Jason that sounds nice. Jason came to me at one of the lowest points in my life and has been buy my side ever since. I am very lucky to have him but sometimes I do wonder ... Is he as lucky to have me in his life? I don't know